Amazing

Im pretty sure I got my first mothers day gift EVER today!!! Marcus sent me lilies and the cutest card ever. It made my whole day, He is a million miles away and still takes time out to send me flowers.... No one has a Fiance like me, go ahead be jealous girls! I cannot wait to officially be Mrs Arganbright, that will be one of the greatest days of my life.
I have a lovely house guest this evening. The lovely Alana is enjoying the pack n play tonight. I sure hope she sleeps through the night. Guess I will find out. We all had an amazing time at the park today... I used my new cam and got some awesome pictures. Logan fell and busted his lip the poor guy looks like he got beat up. Kiki had a fit because I told her she was not pushing the swing right. Tony got blisters on his feet from his new boots and Alana rode in her first real swing! Was a fabulous day!! To top the day off Siobhan wet home off of American Idol.. thank you god no more theatrical/annoying screaming! Now lets get rid of the adolescent Aaron and I'll be so happy lol. Yes I know I should be embarrassed to have just blogged that... I also enjoyed the my first episode of Tacky House. I love all these shows that make me feel better as a person like; Clean house, Tacky House, SuperNanny, and Cops... lol. Talk about self esteem boosters. Going to play some Sorority Life while I wait for my lover to wake his ASS Up.... Peace Jenn

Upgraded!

I am so thankful for such an amazing fiance. He is already fighting for our country in Trashganistan, and still makes the time to put together an awesome website. He has put together a website with links to some amazing outreach programs and volunteer groups that do so much for our community. When he returns home we plan on setting up some of our own outreach and volunteer events to help out those close to home. Please check out the site http://missouricares.net/ We would love any input or helpful advice.
The kids are headed to there dads for the weekend. He is supposed to pick them up at 6 and he better bring his own car seats! If not the children will be staying here with me. He is again reading my facebook I have no idea how he is doing this but he is. I got a message from him that said you are a stupid greedy bitch and if you don't need my money then cancel my child support you fucking bitch.... I'm thinking really are you kidding me grow the fuck up!!! He has no right to send me messages a call me or approach me and call me names ever! Maybe someday he will grow up and stop harassing me but i doubt it. Please Katie come over before six!! I cant handle the douche bag alone!

Feelings

I feel better! Now mom knows exactly how I feel about our present situation. Felt good to get it all off my chest rather than keeping it all bottled up inside. All is well she took it like a normal adult and apologized for her behavior. I just hope she actually makes some changes so I don't have to explain myself again. I have a feeling she is gonna try and drag me out to fuel again this weekend. I don't wanna go!!! Then she trys to put me on a guilt trip saying i dont wanna hang out with her anymore. Its not that I just rather not spend my time at a bar.
My bff Natalie is coming over tonight!!! Very excited it has been awhile since we've hung out together. We are gonna drink some of Marcus's Absinth that I found in his storage. That will be fun! Of course my favorite sister is going to come over as well. Not a house party without the lovely Katie! Alana is late today coming at 1030 it was so lovely to sleep in, I feel super charged! Great things happening today. I also got some child support finally!!! Now I am just waiting for his income tax return to come through. Guess he should not have skipped out on his first year of support and jumped over 6 states to Connecticut and he wouldnt be in this boat. Feels so good to stick it to the abusive bastard!!! The next time he calls to harrass me he is getting another no contact order so I dont have to put up with his bullshit. I am still waiting for the day that he decides to grow up. I am hoping he grows up before Marcus gets home because I know he doesnt want to endure the ass beating he will be recieving for all his name calling and disrespect.
This is a cloudy day that I hope to make beautiful with laughs and love! Jenn

Go to a luandry mat!!

So mom tells me Im gonna leave my car at your house for the night I have a conference in wichita... So i say sure mom. Not that she asked me!! So I head to my sisters house because we have a movie date. I get back from the movie date and Justin says mom left you this.... Its a big ass sticky box of laundry. Are you FU**ing kidding me??? She didnt leave her car just a couple nasty loads of laundry. How rude can you get. Your laundry is in the hall, NO I AM NOT WASHING IT! NO I AM NOT BRINGING IT IN MY HOUSE. GO TO THE LAUNDRY MAT! I will no longer reorganize my life for you, I will no longer finish or do your laundry!!! I am not going out with you unless its a movie or dinner. You had your fun now start being a mom again your kids need you. Just because someone says they can stay over doesnt mean you should let them!! Go home and care for your children.That is all If you reading this again I will say "GO TO A LAUNDRY MAT!"

In other news I miss you Marcus!! Wont be able to sleep tonight. I am sad I missed our chat before your mission!! I love you and will be waiting for your call, letting me know of your safe return home!! Jenn

My Mother

Let me start by saying I love my mother but boy does she make me mad sometimes. Don't make plans with me ask me to adjust my evening then blow me off that is not fair. You say hey Jenn what are you doing tonight. I tell her nothing just watching american idol and spending time with the kids. Mom says well I'm gonna go home and feed then animals then Ill be up so we can watch American Idol. I say great. I message to confirm shes coming over at 730 she says yes feeding then animals then I'm on my way. So since I know she likes coffee before work I set up up the coffee pot with coffee and water so she can just hit start in the morning; second, I prepare the hid abed because I know she is to tall for the couch and I even waiting till she gets here to watch the show. She messaged at 845 that she is on the way then at nine i have a message I'm going to marks are you mad. Really I just waited all evening for you and for the second week in a row i wait and get blown off. I'm done accommodating her. I no longer Wait or plan for anyone else. I'm so annoyed right now!!!!! Another thing I don't like to go out to bars when I say no it has nothing to do with you! I rather sit at home with my children and watch movies or go to the Fork n Screen and enjoy a movie! You can enjoy your midlife crisis on your own, when I wanna go drink Ill ask you. I'm done being the back up plan!!! And if we go out again she can pay there is a large loan that she needs to work off. 650 hmmmm

Fun at the Park

So the kids and I went to the park this afternoon was a ton of fun!!! Alana got to go down the slide with kiki her face was so funny, was her first trip down the slide. Logan of course could not stay in one area, I kept chasing him off into the grass with alana on one arm looking all sorts of crazy. They must thought I was a lunatic going to the park with four kids all under the age of five. Embarrassing for them my kids were all more well behaved than theres. We saw two girls hit, kick and push the other while dad watched and told the little one she deserved it.. WTF??? I dont understand these parents. Then you see the mom not paying attention to her two year old as she falls of the monkey bars... and she had only one kiddos there. Of course the kids recoginize the sound of the ice cream truck so as we are half way around the lake I have to try and get them back around to the truck and stop at our car to get my money then run accross to the other parking lot just intime to get the kids ice cream. Kiki and Tony insist on getting cartoon ice creams and neither of them finish of course and logan and I had bomb pops. So now I have this huge bomb pop in a park fool of guys and I have to try and eat it with out allowing these men to look at me funny. So rather than sucking on the bomb pop like a normal person I have to bite it so they will stop looking at me like they wanna take me home and do dirty things to me... That is the absolute last time I ever get a bomb pop or pop cycle of any kind while im in a public place. So now we are home. Alana is sleeping in her car seat, logan is knocked out in the pack n play, tony is on the couch sleeping and Kiki is cleaning the house.... Well she thinks she is anyways. I am playing on this lovely computer!! Must keep the TV off because my husband thinks that I am a TV Junky... He knows that if he was home he would be right here with me. Can you deny it hunny??? I didnt think so. No I am gonna attempt to have a very short power nap while the house is sleeping. Maybe Kiki is telling me she cleaned the toilet... hmm now im scared. What is she cleaning with, I hope she doesnt pay attention to Clean House because if so I need to go toothbrush shopping!!! YIKES... Have a blessed day world! All My love to you Marcus! I know you will be reading this soon. Jenn

OMG never drinking coffee again... second coffee shit of the day! Ugh!

Kids

My day has started off great!! First I woke up to the sound of Marcus's voice calling for my daily wake up call. That is the best way to wake up Just sucks that Im not waking up to his touch and kiss would much prefer that. Only 5 very short months till im in his arms again. Mom made me coffee this morning and I made the family cinnamon sugar toast SOOOOO good! Alana came over right on time... She has already successfully puked on her bib and blanket enough that I had to start a load of laundry.. YUCK! but through all of that she is still happy.. She was playing on the floor and i look down and she is giggling wrapped in her blanket like a burrito. Very Cute! Tony gets up and he is so dang sweet sits on he couch and says mommy your pretty! He is such a sweet heart. My mother ate his toast I had ready for him!!! grrrr! would be nice if she told me I send him in to grab his toast and he is so upset to find his plate empty. He has been taken care of now Kiki insist on making him feel better and she prepared his toast beautifully. She is so big she would not let me help. All is well in the house this morning. Tony has his superman undies on backward and Logan is covered in who knows what already needing a bath at 9 am. Time to dress these kiddos and Skype with my love! then off to the park to enjoy this amazing day!

Not in Trouble

Finally done going through everything!! No more love letters got them all trashed!!! He said he didnt care because he doesnt need them. I did find a bottle of Absinth YIKES I thought that stuff was fake. Im am scared shitless to try it. I think I'll wait till Marcus comes home to give it a whirl. I am so tired and have a head ache on the brink, off to bed. *Jenn*

Storage

So today was a pretty good relaxing day kids were well behaved and I got a nap in.... Then mom came over to help me clean out my fiances storage. It was easy till we got home and I had to sift through it and combine boxes. I hope hes not mad but I threw away all the old love letters from his BITCH of an ex wife... They made me wanna vomit I got this Nauseous feeling just holding them. Im wondering to myself "why the Fuck do you have these marc"? I threw away all things from my ex husband why would he keep them if not holding on? Anyways there gone now. I feel better!! More storage to go through later!!! Jenn

Logan, Tony and "diva" Kiki

No Internet!

So Marcus had a long mission and I got his return phone call at wake up time. Love hearing his voice in the morning but since he informed that there internet was down I was lacking the motivation to move. Its been an hour and Im still sleepy. Alana is here and sleeping in the swing and then my children are climbing all over me like monkeys. When you become a mother you also become a jungle jim, a servant, a chef and a nurse. I love all these jobs as a mother but sometimes I wonder where I went.When the kids go with there dad I try and be myself for at least one evening. Im so glad my kids love me and want to crawl on me all the time but really I need a break now.... Marcus where are you when I need to talk to you... GODDAMN internet!!! I need to relieve some stress and Ide like to use you to do that! Afghanistan get your Shit together, stop being terrorist and live like normal human beings so my baby can come home. If you cant live like a normal human at least make sure that my mans internet is working at all times!

Random

Miss Marcus like I miss Chocolate the day before my period!!! He knows how i love my dove chocolate and would break an arm for the last bar... LMAO I love you baby! I just watched army wives and it made me cry... It scares me to think some of those things could happen to my Marcus. He spends his days looking for iud's and I'm so proud of him. He risks his life everyday so we can be safe! Please pray for the safety of our soldiers and mine. Pray that after every mission I get the call in the middle of the night that wakes me up when he arrives home from another successful mission! Hes on one now and my mind is wondering what hes seeing what he goes through. It drives me crazy. Missing talking to him before I sleep, makes it very hard to find my pillow. Im hoping after writing this down, I can finally get some sleep. Drop dead diva is distracting me!!! Great show BTW Im a lifetime junking probably the cause for my paranoia.
Toodles!

Name Tattoos

How do you all feel about having name tattoos on you? Spouse? Kids? Would you want your spouse to cover up any former lovers names?
I ask this because my fiance has his ex- bitch wives name on his arm... Pissed me off everytime that I see it!! I think that his first tattoo with me should have been covering that shit up!!! Don't you agree???

Boredom Strikes

Boredom has struck! Going on two solid months without my fiance... The days are getting shorter but the time has gotten longer! I miss him all day long, I fill my days with the kids and try and do as many activities as possible to keep me busy. I began to watch a little girl Alana during the days, being with her has increased my baby fever far beyond the boiling points. When Marcus gets home the steamy baby making sessions will begin! We have already chosen our baby names girl, Cadence Marie; boy, Emmitte Lee. Cute right!! Do you all know how much it sucks to be a be a sex addict and only have a toy and Skype to rely on to get you off... Its great because from trashghanistan he still gets me off but I need to feel his touch, taste his lips, and I need to feel his strong arms around me and his sweat dripping down! With him gone I am having to force myself into working out and its not working before I could rely on sex multiple times a day now I have to actually do something before I turn into a fat ass. Watching lifetime movies and eating all day is not helping the figure. I need some real solid motivation.I had my pictures taken the last week and I didn't realize how pretty I am. I cant wait to do family pictures with her and have her shoot our reception! Peace for now!