In Route

Marcus will soon be on his way home and I could not be more excited. He is the greatest thing that has ever happend to me and more than I ever dreamed of in a man. Still doesnt feel real that he is actually going to be home soon. Days it felt as if it would never end we would be having Skype sex forever. After he gets home I hope to never have to do that again on skype lol. I need to feel his touch, smell his smell and just be near him. I pick him up on the 19th and Im very excited but also a little upset. That is the one thing that I hoped I could do by myself have some real intimate time with him in private. Once we get home we are gonna have 4 children constantly who are so excited he is home and we wont get a second along. I dont Know I thought me getting him alone was avery reasonable request one that he knows i have wanted since the day he left. I have learned that I will never ever come before nick my needs will always be third. First theres Nick then Marcus then me and the kids. Just hurts he couldnt stand up and do this one thing and say hey nick ide really like to get a couple minutes alone with jenn. He just cant ever say no, well just to me. Just hurts really hurts alot. Maybe im being selfish, but i just want him to want to be alone with me as much as i want it. After he gets home we will be running around finishing up the wedding plans he will be busy drinking and seeing everyone. Running kids around to school and there functions. Hopefully making time for some much needed love making 7 months to make up for and hand holding. I just wanna be in his arms again safe and secure. If were lucky we will be quick to have a baby of our own. I just miss him so much and cant wait till he is home so i dont have to fight with the internet and stare at him through my pc anymore. Will be so crazy to just be able to touch him. I told him our first sexual incounter probably will be a quick one im sure ill have a 10 second orgasm lol. having not felt him in so long maybe be done before we even get started hahahhahaahhaha . I love him so much... time to stop talking now before it gets graphic my mind has fallen far into the gutter... I love you all and marcus mostese more. Bye people!

More photos!

Arganbright Children!!

Been Awhile!!

Wow it has been a long time since I have blogged. So much has happened. My amazing step son Nick has moved in. He has been a wonderful addition to our family, I could not have been blessed with a better step child. He is a great big brother and a wonderful student. Im so excited to have such great male role models in my childrens lives. Marcus is now living in a tent before he is to return home from his tour in Afghanistan. I am ecstatic!!! My future husband should be home on September 19th and we can begin our lives together FOR REAL!!! We will be married on October 16 and then we are gonna make a baby! Cant wait to have his child it will be so perfect. hoping for a little girl with red hair and freckles just like me lol... Check out my web site for a business I am trying to start. http://jarganbrightphotos.webs.com Will be more pictures coming soon!!! I LOVE MARCUS TODD ARGANBRIGHT!!!

Vacation

Kids and I had our first family vacation this week, so wish Marcus could have been there. Got off to an exciting start!! We left early monday morning, Nick in the front messing with my radio and kids in the back making a ruckus! 45 minutes into our trip Nick tells me that Logan has just barfed on himself and it was so gross. Disgusting, I had to pull out his carseat, pick out chunks and scrub as best i could with babywipes. Then on the road again. In the middle of nowhere Kiki has to poop. I have no idea when the next gas station is going to come so I pull over and hold her as she goes on the side of the road. Then finally we arrive at our destination. First I meet linda and she is so sweet. Then pops in Bruce, first thing he does is give me a hug and say that I am even more beautiful that my photos. From there it was great fun!! We had the best week together. I am so excited to be a part of the Arganbright family. Bruce is so like Marcus it was scary. Spending time with him made the days fly. He had so many wonderful storys to tell and made me feel so much closer to Marcus. I wish the vacation didnt have to end. A few days of reality then back to the lake for some fourth of July fun. Im counting the days till my Marcus returns home and im officially an Arganbright woman!! 85=home 112=marriage!! I cant wait! I'm still trying to figure out how I got so lucky, I found the man of my dreams!

My baby loves me

M y hubby is totally amazing! I got the most wonderful package in the mail today, Victoria's Secret!!! Too sexy lingerie number one very naughty the other sweet and sexy. And two amazing uplifting bras. He knows me so well its as if I had chosen them myself. Marcus makes me feel like a princess from like a million miles away. I cant wait till he is home and i get to lay in his arms every night.

Sun burn

UGH got a horrible sunburn today! Um yeah my legs are burnt... They Hurt!! I wish my man was home to rub me down with some lotion but I guess kiki will do! Why did my dumb ass go with out some sunscreen today. I always say i never get burnt and what happens i get two burns this summer!! GRRRRR !!!! This sucks. Im in pain... No more sun burns for me please god! I cant handle another one!! Please send my husband home soon I hate him being gone tell Obama to get his head out of his ass and bring all of our brave men home! That is all.. Peace!

Therapy in VS

So I had four lovely kid free hours yesterday!! So what did I do... went to Victoria's Secret for some naughty wedding night lingerie.. I tried on several the first one was totally hilarious. Looked super cute on the hanger. Sheer and white with teal trim, had a ruffle above the breast looked as if it would cover a normal boob. I get it on and there is no bra cup. My tits look obnoxious, no playing peek a boo with that ruffle cause there was no covering these. I took a picture for giggles too bad it is R rated saving it for my hunny. The Others just made me look like a fat ass. I chose a super sweet and sexy number that made my curves look hott SEXY and skinny.. Hes gonna think he has an innocent wifey coming at him on wedding night but I plan to be anything but. Had to get the sweet garments to throw him off. Not really sure why we buy the stuff just to have it taken off but oh well ill look hot for like thirty seconds then out comes reality and all my lovely stretch marks... WOOT WOOT! So glad I found someone who doesnt mind his future wife having a map of the world on her stomach.... For the next three months my sexy lingerie wil be chilling on a hanger till reveal night Ill continue playing on skype till then... Love you husband...

Productive!

OMG I was so productive today! I did some searching and I think I landed on the perfect cake topper, Just need the honey to love it too! I also found the best favors ever and came up with some ideas I think that he will love for our centerpieces!! I am so excited I thought Ide wait for him to get home but then Ill be even more stressed and rushed so I think I need to get it all settled so that I can relax! He is gonna be so proud of me for all my hard work, I know that I am. I am so excited for Vegas we are gonna have a great intimate wedding! I spoke with my coordinator today and finalized our flowers and fine details now just need to choose our wedding ceremony songs and write our vows! I am soooooo Excited!!! I love Marcus so much I have like wedding Fever or something and just wanna plan all day long, it is just all over my brain! I even put on my dress today to make sure i still had those amazing feelings as the day I bought it!! And I do!! I even took some test photos to see in a picture how it looks on me! I even put on my vail! :D

dreams

Why do I have such vivid dreams that My heart races in my sleep and sometimes I even cry!!!
Last night Im having a great time swimming with my children, and we get ready to leave the pool. I always take off logans life jacket before we get in the car, I did. He is so brave he ran over and jumped in the pool... Because it was a dream he jumped really far and all the sudden the pool was very deep. I run and dive in to save him, I bring him up and do cpr but nothing. Then the ambulance comes to revive him, It was just like when he was born. They hooked him up with a breathing tube and he was in the hospital.He stayed for a few days while this was going on my dream just got crazier. Im in the hospital looking for his room, but half of the hospital is like an amusement park.. WTF! I run into some people who are being chased. I see a red lazer on her head and I say hey look and they dodge I dodge and now I guess I pissed them off cause the people put the red dot on me. They fire and graze my neck I wasnt shot but It hurt like hell.I get away after some chaos and get to my sons room. He is still on tubes but awake and doing better. I head home for the day with my wacko mother. And she is driving like a freaking idiot and doing so in front of the cops. Like three cops pull her over in front off my home. She is a jerk to them She threw her gum in the face of one of them. He calls over the sergeant and she tells him the other guy was an asswhole they laugh together of course she tells him a sob story and no ticket is given. Then I look up and Logan is running happily on the porch, I start to ball. I run out of the car and snatch him up, all while thinking how the hell did he get here, I just saw him. Then I wake up because my sexy man sent me an IM to my phone!! Vivid dreams huh!! They are like this everynight! I think I will start recording them on here.

Wedding Plans

Wedding plans have completely changed, my stress overload has been minimized a great deal. Positives of the changes- My husband to be will definitely be home in Time!! My maid of honor Natalie will be 21 on Oct 2 YES!!! So she actually gets to come!!! October 16 @ the Riviera Wedding chapel in Vegas I get to Marry the man of my dreams!!! I am so excited and happy I cant wait to be his wife. He is the kindest most amazing man I could have ever dreamt of. Our wedding day will be one of the best of my life! Then We get to make our baby woo hoo!!! If he gets me preggers before Vegas I may have to kill him lol, That is all for now!!

Swimming

I always said that I would never swim in public until I found a wet suit to wear. Well when you have three children who love the water that idea no longer works. My children have me at the pool everyday and yes I have to get in the water. Its all good cause I got a super sexy grandma suit complete with a skirt and all... I decided I dont care bout my cellulite anymore there are plenty of fat girls at the pool and the ones that arent fat have hair growing from there backs... LMAO. The only man I need to impress I already got and he loves my curves, everyone of them. My children think its really cool that I have a road map on my stomach.
So today I went to Splash Cove with the family and we had tons of fun. It is like a mini water park just for little kids. I will probably be dragged there at least once a week for some fun in the sun :). I love being able to have fun and enjoy my children they are getting so big. Logan is so brave he isnt afraid of anything. Kinda scary when it comes to water, I wish he had a little more fear of that. I lvoe the summer because I get to have so much fun outdoors with the kids. WInter please never come!!

103 DAYS TILL I GET MARRIED TO MY SEXY MAN!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! VEGAS HERE WE COME!

Tattoos..

Got a new tattoo today!! I got it for my baby. it is Kanji for Virtuous Women, Faithful Wife. I had it done in an air brushed look rather than sharp edges, I thought it would make it a bit more feminine. I just love him so much, he and the kids are my world. Im gonna go back later this week and pierce my lip because my tattoo was less then i expected. Fun Fun Fun! I went to Worlds of fun with nick/Cassidy and shannon this weekend. We had so much fun. Mice bailed on his children, yet again. But there grandmother loves them and got them for a bit today, and his family got to see them but his own plans were more important. He didnt even notice his daughter got her ears peirced and she has had them for three weeks now. Well really not much to say today just blogging for my baby. Sure there will be plenty tomorrow because we will be with my whole crazy family. I just hope they are not too scary for Nick! Peace

Missing him

I am missing my Marcus so much. I didnt get to talk to him before bed!!! FAIL. He said he didnt have a mission today so i left my phone in the car at WOF. Turns out he did and I missed his call before he got on the trucks. Awful. I miss him so much it is 2am and i cant sleep. I love him so much my heart hurts right now. My world will be so awesome when he is finally home. I cant wait for our family to be complete and to become Mrs; Arganbright!!!
Worlds of Fun was tons of fun. We rode lots of rides and played games. Nick and Cassady are so adorable. Young love is too cute, I had to tell him the right way to hold her hand lol. Way to go nick you finally beat me at something. He made a basket at the game and i missed lol. He is so much like MArcus it is funny. They are both so paranoid about people lol and there belongings being stolen. Having Nick around is very nice cause I get to see little bits of Marcus that help me not to miss him so bad. but sometimes it makes it worse.
Nick had major gas tonight ad farted in audreys face like a million times it was hilarious.
I bought a swimming suit today and i dont feel like a total fat ass in it :D.
must try and sleep now.
ALL MY LOVE for MARCUS... xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

The puddle

So there is this giant puddle that lives in the parking space out side our apartment. Even if it hasnt rained it is always full of water, nasty water. As soon as we go out the door my dirt magnet Logan runs right for it. As I yell everyday "Logan get away from that puddle" he just dives right in. Constantly sooooo dirty, I bathe him three times aday!!! There is no possible way to get the kid clean. It would be awesome if they would just fix my muddy sidewalk, and pond of a parking space. Until them I thank god that my water is paid for... Shower away kids!!
I have officially bitched at Tmobile enough that they are sending me a Blackberry bold free of charge!!! Woot Woot. I can not freaking wait Im stoked!

Yes this is real!

Quarters!!

So last night I get to bed at about 1230 and am quickly awakened by
tony. He is crying and in tons of pain.... Im freaking out because Im thinking a 3 with chest pain this cant be good. I was right we headed out to the ER and found out he had a quarter lodged in his esophagus.. WTF! No wonder the poor guy had chest pain. So as you can imagine I had a long day at the hospital and operating on minimal sleep. We came home with a quarter and an awesome photo to show off lol. I dont think he will be putting money in his mouth anytime soon.No I must sleep because i am droopy eyed and looking like SHIT, fear I will be quite moody tomorrow.
I love you Marcus sorry I most likely will not be on when you get up. I miss you and am dreaming of you. We will definitely play beat the clock tomorrow!! All my love forever to my baby.
Mrs Arganbright!!

My baby loves me

" i love u so much that u r always in my thoughts, so longed for. u r the first thing i think about when i wake up and the last thing i think of b4 i go to sleep."

For my lover

Marcus has been on my ass to blog because ive been slacking... This is for you baby!!!
Life lately has been so great. I am really enjoying my step son nick... It is so nice to have a child around that I can communicate with. He is so great with the children. Tony calls him brother Nick ... We went swimming, monkey biz and to Worlds of Fun this weekend. The only thing that could make my life better now is having my Marcus home with me. My one stress is my mother. SHe is throwing herself at me and just pushing her way into my home. I mean I am sorry you cant manage to pay your bills because you rather go on a vacation you cant afford.. GRRR! In what world is that ok. Also so very excited to meet my future father in law and his wife linda... The cabin is gonna be so fun. Just gotta make them love me!!! They all need to be reassured that marcus is doing the right thing. Im gonna show them the lovely girl that Marcus fell in love with. Watching Maneater with Katie.... Go LEE American Idol Finally tomrrow night. Toodles!! :D

Weekend Madness!!

This Weekend was super fun! Friday night my sis and I drove to lawrence to see Bobby Long!!! He is so yummy. We got there early and he is just sitting in his car out the side chilling. I just turned around and walked the other way, lmao. Just wasnt ready to see him just sitting there. In the process our show tickets fell out of my back pocket and thank god for Katie she retrieved them for me. So i get my composure and we go ahead and walk past him and katie blurts out I have that same bike. Im cracking up cause it was so random. Then we are laughing like school girls. With no idea where to go from there we head to the book store for some relief. So we get done peeing and this women takes a shit before we even leave the store... GAG ME PLEASE< Then we see a ghetto ATM just sticking randomly out of the brick wall, that was a first. Finally we make it to the show and get great seats. Some crazy ass old women behind us talking about there kstew and Rpatts obsessions and a very large overweight chick sitting alone beside us. Come to find out later it was show six for her and she loved to buy drinks for random strangers!!! bahahahahahaha drinks on heather lol.. for us and a group of three guys who werent even talking to her. One of them sat at our table lol cause he felt bad. Made for a fun and exciting night till she got drunk and we are convinced she wanted to take us home. Katie and i quickly bailed before the last band finished and headed home. Left out a couple goodies we did get to meet bobby long katie had a lil convo with him i just popped in to say high. He seems super shy then like a fucking asswhole he denys katies a photo saying hes not feeling well... wtf you better change professions because your fans will not like you if you deny photos and give lame ass excuses. The fans make you who you are doesnt he know that!!! Onward and Upward... Saturday = ROCKFEST ie. MUDFEST lol. Biggest one day concert in the US!! Of course it had to rain all fucking day which in my opinion only made the day more exciting! I saw my first mudslide of drunk people, experienced my first mosh pit.. YIKES. Saw some of the biggest tits ever (against my wishes GROSS) and rocked out to Halestorm, totally amazing. She sounded better live than in my cd player!!! My brother came and was a fucking ass whole he ruined the mood and we ended up leaving early. by the time the day was over my feet and calves were totally caked in mud!! I scrubbed forever to get clean. Overall great day that left me chilled to the bone and wishing as usual that my Marcus had been there to enjoy the day with me and keep me warm!! The fun did not stop there! Sunday was a day of fun shopping!! Picked up nick and we went to the mall and got clothes and shoes! He is gonna be styling. I really enjoy having him around helps me not to miss Marcus so much. Im so excited to blend our familys together and I know the kids are so happy to have an older step brother! They cried for hugs when i dropped him off last night... Then it was home to be to sleep cause after a weekend like that my old body was super tired!!! Was so nice to actually get to chat with my hubby today. he needs to get home soon so we can skype some more. I miss seeing his face and having endless convos and mostly the skype showers and *** ... hunny I tryed to you know what on my own one day and i cant with out you... Hurrrrryyy back for me hunny I have frustrations!!! All my love to MaRcus

Today!

Today was a really great day! I have been watching what I eat lately. I gave up soda and now have given up coffee. Water has become my friend. I officially started the slim fast diet today and am feeling great. I thought that I would be hungry but Im not. I weighed myself today I have lost 1.6 pounds this week. Woo hoo I am so excited!! I really wanna look amazing when I get married and this is step one because I already have a beautiful face, now I just need a body to go with. Marcus and I also discussed moving into a three bedroom because my future stepson will be moving in and we have way to much for our current apt. Im so glad to have such an amazing man in my life. Can't wait for him to get home so we can get hitched, and then go to Belize. The kids and I also went to the park and had a great time. As usual the boys got hurt. Logan somehow bloodied his lip on the slide and tony fell while running skinned an ar, and knee. now it is time to crush a final and then two to go!!! Night people! Jenn

Amazing

Im pretty sure I got my first mothers day gift EVER today!!! Marcus sent me lilies and the cutest card ever. It made my whole day, He is a million miles away and still takes time out to send me flowers.... No one has a Fiance like me, go ahead be jealous girls! I cannot wait to officially be Mrs Arganbright, that will be one of the greatest days of my life.
I have a lovely house guest this evening. The lovely Alana is enjoying the pack n play tonight. I sure hope she sleeps through the night. Guess I will find out. We all had an amazing time at the park today... I used my new cam and got some awesome pictures. Logan fell and busted his lip the poor guy looks like he got beat up. Kiki had a fit because I told her she was not pushing the swing right. Tony got blisters on his feet from his new boots and Alana rode in her first real swing! Was a fabulous day!! To top the day off Siobhan wet home off of American Idol.. thank you god no more theatrical/annoying screaming! Now lets get rid of the adolescent Aaron and I'll be so happy lol. Yes I know I should be embarrassed to have just blogged that... I also enjoyed the my first episode of Tacky House. I love all these shows that make me feel better as a person like; Clean house, Tacky House, SuperNanny, and Cops... lol. Talk about self esteem boosters. Going to play some Sorority Life while I wait for my lover to wake his ASS Up.... Peace Jenn

Upgraded!

I am so thankful for such an amazing fiance. He is already fighting for our country in Trashganistan, and still makes the time to put together an awesome website. He has put together a website with links to some amazing outreach programs and volunteer groups that do so much for our community. When he returns home we plan on setting up some of our own outreach and volunteer events to help out those close to home. Please check out the site http://missouricares.net/ We would love any input or helpful advice.
The kids are headed to there dads for the weekend. He is supposed to pick them up at 6 and he better bring his own car seats! If not the children will be staying here with me. He is again reading my facebook I have no idea how he is doing this but he is. I got a message from him that said you are a stupid greedy bitch and if you don't need my money then cancel my child support you fucking bitch.... I'm thinking really are you kidding me grow the fuck up!!! He has no right to send me messages a call me or approach me and call me names ever! Maybe someday he will grow up and stop harassing me but i doubt it. Please Katie come over before six!! I cant handle the douche bag alone!

Feelings

I feel better! Now mom knows exactly how I feel about our present situation. Felt good to get it all off my chest rather than keeping it all bottled up inside. All is well she took it like a normal adult and apologized for her behavior. I just hope she actually makes some changes so I don't have to explain myself again. I have a feeling she is gonna try and drag me out to fuel again this weekend. I don't wanna go!!! Then she trys to put me on a guilt trip saying i dont wanna hang out with her anymore. Its not that I just rather not spend my time at a bar.
My bff Natalie is coming over tonight!!! Very excited it has been awhile since we've hung out together. We are gonna drink some of Marcus's Absinth that I found in his storage. That will be fun! Of course my favorite sister is going to come over as well. Not a house party without the lovely Katie! Alana is late today coming at 1030 it was so lovely to sleep in, I feel super charged! Great things happening today. I also got some child support finally!!! Now I am just waiting for his income tax return to come through. Guess he should not have skipped out on his first year of support and jumped over 6 states to Connecticut and he wouldnt be in this boat. Feels so good to stick it to the abusive bastard!!! The next time he calls to harrass me he is getting another no contact order so I dont have to put up with his bullshit. I am still waiting for the day that he decides to grow up. I am hoping he grows up before Marcus gets home because I know he doesnt want to endure the ass beating he will be recieving for all his name calling and disrespect.
This is a cloudy day that I hope to make beautiful with laughs and love! Jenn

Go to a luandry mat!!

So mom tells me Im gonna leave my car at your house for the night I have a conference in wichita... So i say sure mom. Not that she asked me!! So I head to my sisters house because we have a movie date. I get back from the movie date and Justin says mom left you this.... Its a big ass sticky box of laundry. Are you FU**ing kidding me??? She didnt leave her car just a couple nasty loads of laundry. How rude can you get. Your laundry is in the hall, NO I AM NOT WASHING IT! NO I AM NOT BRINGING IT IN MY HOUSE. GO TO THE LAUNDRY MAT! I will no longer reorganize my life for you, I will no longer finish or do your laundry!!! I am not going out with you unless its a movie or dinner. You had your fun now start being a mom again your kids need you. Just because someone says they can stay over doesnt mean you should let them!! Go home and care for your children.That is all If you reading this again I will say "GO TO A LAUNDRY MAT!"

In other news I miss you Marcus!! Wont be able to sleep tonight. I am sad I missed our chat before your mission!! I love you and will be waiting for your call, letting me know of your safe return home!! Jenn

My Mother

Let me start by saying I love my mother but boy does she make me mad sometimes. Don't make plans with me ask me to adjust my evening then blow me off that is not fair. You say hey Jenn what are you doing tonight. I tell her nothing just watching american idol and spending time with the kids. Mom says well I'm gonna go home and feed then animals then Ill be up so we can watch American Idol. I say great. I message to confirm shes coming over at 730 she says yes feeding then animals then I'm on my way. So since I know she likes coffee before work I set up up the coffee pot with coffee and water so she can just hit start in the morning; second, I prepare the hid abed because I know she is to tall for the couch and I even waiting till she gets here to watch the show. She messaged at 845 that she is on the way then at nine i have a message I'm going to marks are you mad. Really I just waited all evening for you and for the second week in a row i wait and get blown off. I'm done accommodating her. I no longer Wait or plan for anyone else. I'm so annoyed right now!!!!! Another thing I don't like to go out to bars when I say no it has nothing to do with you! I rather sit at home with my children and watch movies or go to the Fork n Screen and enjoy a movie! You can enjoy your midlife crisis on your own, when I wanna go drink Ill ask you. I'm done being the back up plan!!! And if we go out again she can pay there is a large loan that she needs to work off. 650 hmmmm

Fun at the Park

So the kids and I went to the park this afternoon was a ton of fun!!! Alana got to go down the slide with kiki her face was so funny, was her first trip down the slide. Logan of course could not stay in one area, I kept chasing him off into the grass with alana on one arm looking all sorts of crazy. They must thought I was a lunatic going to the park with four kids all under the age of five. Embarrassing for them my kids were all more well behaved than theres. We saw two girls hit, kick and push the other while dad watched and told the little one she deserved it.. WTF??? I dont understand these parents. Then you see the mom not paying attention to her two year old as she falls of the monkey bars... and she had only one kiddos there. Of course the kids recoginize the sound of the ice cream truck so as we are half way around the lake I have to try and get them back around to the truck and stop at our car to get my money then run accross to the other parking lot just intime to get the kids ice cream. Kiki and Tony insist on getting cartoon ice creams and neither of them finish of course and logan and I had bomb pops. So now I have this huge bomb pop in a park fool of guys and I have to try and eat it with out allowing these men to look at me funny. So rather than sucking on the bomb pop like a normal person I have to bite it so they will stop looking at me like they wanna take me home and do dirty things to me... That is the absolute last time I ever get a bomb pop or pop cycle of any kind while im in a public place. So now we are home. Alana is sleeping in her car seat, logan is knocked out in the pack n play, tony is on the couch sleeping and Kiki is cleaning the house.... Well she thinks she is anyways. I am playing on this lovely computer!! Must keep the TV off because my husband thinks that I am a TV Junky... He knows that if he was home he would be right here with me. Can you deny it hunny??? I didnt think so. No I am gonna attempt to have a very short power nap while the house is sleeping. Maybe Kiki is telling me she cleaned the toilet... hmm now im scared. What is she cleaning with, I hope she doesnt pay attention to Clean House because if so I need to go toothbrush shopping!!! YIKES... Have a blessed day world! All My love to you Marcus! I know you will be reading this soon. Jenn

OMG never drinking coffee again... second coffee shit of the day! Ugh!

Kids

My day has started off great!! First I woke up to the sound of Marcus's voice calling for my daily wake up call. That is the best way to wake up Just sucks that Im not waking up to his touch and kiss would much prefer that. Only 5 very short months till im in his arms again. Mom made me coffee this morning and I made the family cinnamon sugar toast SOOOOO good! Alana came over right on time... She has already successfully puked on her bib and blanket enough that I had to start a load of laundry.. YUCK! but through all of that she is still happy.. She was playing on the floor and i look down and she is giggling wrapped in her blanket like a burrito. Very Cute! Tony gets up and he is so dang sweet sits on he couch and says mommy your pretty! He is such a sweet heart. My mother ate his toast I had ready for him!!! grrrr! would be nice if she told me I send him in to grab his toast and he is so upset to find his plate empty. He has been taken care of now Kiki insist on making him feel better and she prepared his toast beautifully. She is so big she would not let me help. All is well in the house this morning. Tony has his superman undies on backward and Logan is covered in who knows what already needing a bath at 9 am. Time to dress these kiddos and Skype with my love! then off to the park to enjoy this amazing day!

Not in Trouble

Finally done going through everything!! No more love letters got them all trashed!!! He said he didnt care because he doesnt need them. I did find a bottle of Absinth YIKES I thought that stuff was fake. Im am scared shitless to try it. I think I'll wait till Marcus comes home to give it a whirl. I am so tired and have a head ache on the brink, off to bed. *Jenn*

Storage

So today was a pretty good relaxing day kids were well behaved and I got a nap in.... Then mom came over to help me clean out my fiances storage. It was easy till we got home and I had to sift through it and combine boxes. I hope hes not mad but I threw away all the old love letters from his BITCH of an ex wife... They made me wanna vomit I got this Nauseous feeling just holding them. Im wondering to myself "why the Fuck do you have these marc"? I threw away all things from my ex husband why would he keep them if not holding on? Anyways there gone now. I feel better!! More storage to go through later!!! Jenn

Logan, Tony and "diva" Kiki

No Internet!

So Marcus had a long mission and I got his return phone call at wake up time. Love hearing his voice in the morning but since he informed that there internet was down I was lacking the motivation to move. Its been an hour and Im still sleepy. Alana is here and sleeping in the swing and then my children are climbing all over me like monkeys. When you become a mother you also become a jungle jim, a servant, a chef and a nurse. I love all these jobs as a mother but sometimes I wonder where I went.When the kids go with there dad I try and be myself for at least one evening. Im so glad my kids love me and want to crawl on me all the time but really I need a break now.... Marcus where are you when I need to talk to you... GODDAMN internet!!! I need to relieve some stress and Ide like to use you to do that! Afghanistan get your Shit together, stop being terrorist and live like normal human beings so my baby can come home. If you cant live like a normal human at least make sure that my mans internet is working at all times!

Random

Miss Marcus like I miss Chocolate the day before my period!!! He knows how i love my dove chocolate and would break an arm for the last bar... LMAO I love you baby! I just watched army wives and it made me cry... It scares me to think some of those things could happen to my Marcus. He spends his days looking for iud's and I'm so proud of him. He risks his life everyday so we can be safe! Please pray for the safety of our soldiers and mine. Pray that after every mission I get the call in the middle of the night that wakes me up when he arrives home from another successful mission! Hes on one now and my mind is wondering what hes seeing what he goes through. It drives me crazy. Missing talking to him before I sleep, makes it very hard to find my pillow. Im hoping after writing this down, I can finally get some sleep. Drop dead diva is distracting me!!! Great show BTW Im a lifetime junking probably the cause for my paranoia.
Toodles!

Name Tattoos

How do you all feel about having name tattoos on you? Spouse? Kids? Would you want your spouse to cover up any former lovers names?
I ask this because my fiance has his ex- bitch wives name on his arm... Pissed me off everytime that I see it!! I think that his first tattoo with me should have been covering that shit up!!! Don't you agree???

Boredom Strikes

Boredom has struck! Going on two solid months without my fiance... The days are getting shorter but the time has gotten longer! I miss him all day long, I fill my days with the kids and try and do as many activities as possible to keep me busy. I began to watch a little girl Alana during the days, being with her has increased my baby fever far beyond the boiling points. When Marcus gets home the steamy baby making sessions will begin! We have already chosen our baby names girl, Cadence Marie; boy, Emmitte Lee. Cute right!! Do you all know how much it sucks to be a be a sex addict and only have a toy and Skype to rely on to get you off... Its great because from trashghanistan he still gets me off but I need to feel his touch, taste his lips, and I need to feel his strong arms around me and his sweat dripping down! With him gone I am having to force myself into working out and its not working before I could rely on sex multiple times a day now I have to actually do something before I turn into a fat ass. Watching lifetime movies and eating all day is not helping the figure. I need some real solid motivation.I had my pictures taken the last week and I didn't realize how pretty I am. I cant wait to do family pictures with her and have her shoot our reception! Peace for now!